[ For a moment, he considers the idea of just grabbing the box and taking the matter into his own hands, but it felt like too much of a chore. Who knew that the respite of spending time as himself merely made looking at this all the more sickening? ]
Did you think I had a choice?
[ Thinking back about it, perhaps he did. But it was just an illusion of a choice. He originally accepted it out of his own interest and parental expectations, but as he went down that path things just became more and more tangled until he couldn't even leave if he wanted. It was painful and so taxing, it could have been called hell. He had to work if he wanted to live, and he was too afraid to die.
Maybe he had grown soft while being here. It was a real possibility. ]
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Did you think I had a choice?
[ Thinking back about it, perhaps he did. But it was just an illusion of a choice. He originally accepted it out of his own interest and parental expectations, but as he went down that path things just became more and more tangled until he couldn't even leave if he wanted. It was painful and so taxing, it could have been called hell. He had to work if he wanted to live, and he was too afraid to die.
Maybe he had grown soft while being here. It was a real possibility. ]