[ What's holding him back? He knows the answer. It's been months, he's known since Shining pointed it out to him. But it's a very difficult thing to admit.
"Why can't I sing as my own self?" ]
You don't understand.
[ Of course she doesn't. She's always had it the easy way, doesn't she? Playing what she wants, true to her heart - and yet, he had to kill his own in order to comply with higher-ups who effectively (not literally, but close) had his lifeline in a chokehold. Even though it's been months since he's come here and thus technically away from their influence, he always had to prepare for the eventuality that he had to leave and return to his old work. Soul-crushing work, which he was forcibly reminded of every time he sees his friends. ]
You'd think I don't want to do it? Idols don't have it easy, you know. [ As much as he's tempted to snap at her, he remembers Makoto's words at this point and successfully resists the urge. ] We have to fake things all the time. It's necessary.
[ Would she get it? Probably not, but it was worth an attempt. ]
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"Why can't I sing as my own self?" ]
You don't understand.
[ Of course she doesn't. She's always had it the easy way, doesn't she? Playing what she wants, true to her heart - and yet, he had to kill his own in order to comply with higher-ups who effectively (not literally, but close) had his lifeline in a chokehold. Even though it's been months since he's come here and thus technically away from their influence, he always had to prepare for the eventuality that he had to leave and return to his old work. Soul-crushing work, which he was forcibly reminded of every time he sees his friends. ]
You'd think I don't want to do it? Idols don't have it easy, you know. [ As much as he's tempted to snap at her, he remembers Makoto's words at this point and successfully resists the urge. ] We have to fake things all the time. It's necessary.
[ Would she get it? Probably not, but it was worth an attempt. ]